I just did something I haven’t done in a while – binged. So disappointed with myself.
It was on potato chips, so I haven’t strayed off the fructose-free path, but it was still bingeing on food. So much for the appetite control I’ve been blogging about!
We had a couple of bags of potato chips left over from D’s birthday party. I spotted them when I got home from work and scoffed down quite a few. I wasn’t even hungry. I guess I can’t expect to change all of my eating behaviours at once.
My day started off well too. D and I went running. It was hard work as we hadn’t gone for a few days, but I feel so good afterwards. My goal is to get up to running 5ks, but we still have a way to go. Then I got on the scales and saw that I am tantalisingly close to my first magic number.
I hope I haven’t derailed my weight-loss progress too much.
Anyway, I’ve been sitting here trying to figure out what triggered this binge. In the past it’s been a myriad of reasons: I’m sad, I’ve had a bad day, I feel like I deserve a treat…And I think maybe this time round it’s that last reason. My cravings for sweet things haven’t been too bad, but I really did feel deprived the other day. Everyone had lots of yummy things at D’s party, and it was a struggle not to indulge. So I think maybe I’ve just experienced a mini-rebellion, sort of a ‘stuff this, I want to have something yummy too (only a sugar-free something yummy)’. Gah! Why is food such a complex issue?