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I just did something I haven’t done in a while – binged.  So disappointed with myself.

It was on potato chips, so I haven’t strayed off the fructose-free path, but it was still bingeing on food.  So much for the appetite control I’ve been blogging about!

We had a couple of bags of potato chips left over from D’s birthday party.  I spotted them when I got home from work and scoffed down quite a few.  I wasn’t even hungry.  I guess I can’t expect to change all of my eating behaviours at once.

My day started off well too.  D and I went running.  It was hard work as we hadn’t gone for a few days, but I feel so good afterwards.  My goal is to get up to running 5ks, but we still have a way to go.  Then I got on the scales and saw that I am tantalisingly close to my first magic number.

I hope I haven’t derailed my weight-loss progress too much.

Anyway, I’ve been sitting here trying to figure out what triggered this binge.  In the past it’s been a myriad of reasons: I’m sad, I’ve had a bad day, I feel like I deserve a treat…And I think maybe this time round it’s that last reason.  My cravings for sweet things haven’t been too bad, but I really did feel deprived the other day.  Everyone had lots of yummy things at D’s party, and it was a struggle not to indulge.  So I think maybe I’ve just experienced a mini-rebellion, sort of a ‘stuff this, I want to have something yummy too (only a sugar-free something yummy)’.  Gah!  Why is food such a complex issue?